“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
If you went to any Sunday School worth its weight in graham crackers, you know this verse. It’s one we’ve had pounded into our heads since a young age, and for those of you who didn’t grow up with Bible Races and Memory Verse Tests, it’s one of the first verses I believe they make you learn. It’s just so core to our beliefs. Trusting in God is just something you have to do. But I don’t think we really get it.
I think that unfortunately, we think that trusting in God is something like this:
We act like “Trusting” is the same as “Believing” in God. Or that it’s simply “trusting” that God has a good plan for you. But the thing is, it’s so much more.
Sometimes, God asks us to do some things that seem crazy, or impossible, or just the worst. Sometimes, it’s all three of those things in one. And I don’t know about you, but when He asks me to do something that fulfills all 3 categories, I often argue and try to point out that my way is obviously the right way. That there could be no possible good coming from my suffering through another moment in this person’s presence, or putting myself out there in an awkward situation will not help anyone else, but He somehow always manages to prove me wrong.
I think it has something to do with when we’re out of our comfort zone, it is entirely on God. All the pressure, and all the Glory as well. And I sometimes have a hard time giving that up. Giving up control. Trusting someone else. I’m a micro manager. That’s one of the reasons I don’t post here all that often, because if things aren’t perfect, I feel like it’ll reflect poorly on me. That’s just stupid! Of course I will mess up, and it’s ok. God loves me, and uses me in spite of that fact. And choosing to do nothing till it’s perfect, well, it’s a waste. That’s the not trust. Trust requires an action.
So, I guess I’m just starting to realize that to trust Him, I need to remember that that verse is more than just words. I need to remember that in ALL my ways to acknowledge Him, and let Him direct my path. Only then will life line up.